3/6/11
I took a bath full of bleach
and I’m still not clean,
So I got a hose of gasoline
burnt myself but I’m still
so dirty, I’m not clean,

I’m not cleanable, I’ll always be this way,
Dirty and so afraid, full of rage,
I have scrubbed a thousand times
As I let these eyes cry behind,

I scratched off all my skin
but I still couldn’t let you in,
So I peeled off all my skin
but I still couldn’t show you
what lies within,

I’m not trusting you, I’ll always be so sick,
Dirty and always questioning this,
I have tried, I swear I have tried
But I can’t cry with you so close,

I clawed my way into my chest
just to check if there were anything left,
It was withered, it was broken,
It was alone but it was there,
Just waiting, just biding time,
I clawed my way into my chest
just to check if there were anything left.

I’m not heartless, I’m just so ill,
Dirty and looking for a new thrill,
I have tried abstinence, it was okay
But I can’t live with you watching every move,

Just turn away and let me do this my way,
Just turn away and let me cry behind your back again,
Just turn away and let me do this my own way,
Just turn away and let me die behind your back.