20/5

20/5/11
And you thought you could save me
And I hoped you would just hold me,
And you thought you could climb every hoop,
And I was right behind you,

Yeah I held you right in place
just to save face,
Yeah I held you right in place
just to make you feel safe,
What a load of.

And you thought we were doing well
and I hoped you wouldn’t turn around,
And you thought you could save me,
And I hoped you would just hold me,

Yeah you held me right in place
and I saved face,
Yeah I held you right in that dark place
just to make you feel safe,
What a load of.

“Where’s that money that I worked so hard for,
Where’s that key that I told you to leave,
Where’s my anything, where’s my dignity,
I know you flushed yours but I didn’t give you mine,
Where’s that money that I left on the counter,
Where’s that key that I yelled for you to leave,
Where’s my everything, where’s my dignity,
I know you flushed yours but I didn’t give you mine”,

And then you put your arms around me and I felt the hatred
fill me to the brim and I pushed you away but you said
“just let me let you feel safe, I know you stole from me again,
but we can do this, we can get through this together,
I’ll just lock up my valuables at nighttime,
And I’ll pin you to this bed until you detox”

But I’m retoxing every time you blink, I’m sorry,
But I’m in dire need of a retox because I can’t lie to you again
without anything deep inside my nervous system.