Wednesday, June 16, 2010
13/5/10

I have been lying down for too long, your
footprints mark my head and stomach darkly,
I won’t do this anymore, no I am standing up
to meet you, I’ll squeeze your hand to let you know
that I am serious about this.

I am sitting up, my feet are working tough,
The bones in my back ache after such a long rest,
But I am using my spine now, oh I am using
my courage to tell you where to go.

I have let the reins fall too long, your
hands gripping white knuckled in control,
I won’t do this anymore, no I am reaching over
to take the reins, I’ll pull and pull to let you know
that I am serious about this.

I am sitting up, my feet are working tough,
The bones in my back ache after such a long rest,
But I am using my spine now, oh I am using
my courage to tell you where to go.

I don’t feel I need you anymore,
I used to say I’d be lost without you,
But now I am only confused around you,

And I took a shower and washed
every footprint off and I am holding these
reins so tight my fingers bleed,
But I am in control.

I am sitting up, my feet are working tough,
The bones in my back ache after such a long rest,
But I am using my spine now, oh I am using
my courage to tell you to…

leave me alone, I won’t lie down in front of you anymore,
I am not yours to puppeteer anymore,
And I love the sound of my back when it cracks
Because I know my spine has toughened up
and now I feel alive.
Posted by e-r-eden at 2:15 PM 0 comments 16-4-10

There’s all these songs goin’ round,
With boys screaming into microphones,
About broken hearts and bleeding wrists,
Wearing dark make up and resenting everything
and everyone, it’s a hole so deep,
an obsession, an addiction so strong.

To keep oneself so sick in one’s head,
To keep oneself so lonely all the time.

There’s all these kids that’re listenin’
to other kids screaming into microphones,
About real loneliness and deep sorrow,
Wearing frowns and swallowing funny pills,
and drinks, it’s a hole so deep,
an obsession, an addiction so strong.

To keep oneself so sick in one’s head,
To keep oneself so lonely all the time.

There’s this real dangerous craze
going around where kids are all cutting,
Now despite beliefs, this ain’t a joke,
Kids smoking and wearing horrible scars,
no tears, it’s a hole so deep,
an obsession, an addiction so strong.

To never believe in anything,
Then you can’t get disappointed,
To never have any hopes at all,
Then you can’t fall any further,
What a stupid hopeless myth
What a stupid hopeless mess you’re in, kid.
Posted by e-r-eden at 2:05 PM 0 comments 14-4-10
My mind holds a ‘under construction’
sign up loud and clear, I’m not really here,
I’m just gritting my teeth and hurting my jaw,
I’m closing my eyes and trying not to cry,
And I’m aching for a poison, aching for…

you, if I could say my last words
(Can’t believe I can’t remember)
I’d make them something strong
Like I love you, simply true,
If I could say my last words, again.

My body holds a ‘under construction’
sign up not so loud and not so clear,
I’m falling apart on the inside hiding it all,
I’m closing your eyes and I will not cry,
And I’m constantly aching for…

you, if I could say my last words
(Can’t believe I can’t remember)
I’d make them something strong
Like I love you, simply true,
If I could say my last words, again.

My mind holds a ‘under construction’
sign up loud and clear, I am screaming it out here,
I’m clenching my jaw and grinding my teeth,
I’m closing all the eyes and I will not cry,
And I’m aching for more than a poison…

you, if I could say my last words
(Can’t believe I can’t remember)
I’d make them something strong
Like I love you, simply true,
If I could say my last words, again.

I am aching…

to give you my last words again,
Can’t believe I can’t even remember,
I’d love to tell you how I love you,
I’d love to hear you tell how you love me,
I hope you know, I hope you know how I
loved you so even though I never called,
I am aching to have you know.